Saw mi carrying tt guy?
It was a bloody guy.
I really thought it was a girl in the first place la!
Really like this blogskin comparing to the previous lame blogskin.
Look at me.
So manly right?
That goes without saying!
Monday, March 29, 2010
30thMAR10'!
btp!
i want my life to be better.
thought holidays started a month ago..
i still feel tt i have not accomplish anything.
like no goal or anything.
seriously i should just stop doing unhealthy things and train more.
just came back from hilltop wif leon and others.
though we train and train but after tt we drink and unhealthy stuff gets in again.
unhealthy stuffs deprove us but training improves it back..
this cycles keep continuing and in conclusion?
we still at de same place.
negative and positive and so on just made us back to de original place.
old habits die hard and training just seems like a thing to kill time.
i dun want tt.
i want to grow big and fit.
looking into de mirror makes mi feel like still some small secondary school students.
so i should just train hard!
eat and eat until swallow saliva oso difficult!
keep it this way den do less of those unhealthy stuff again..
abt time!
ja-na!
handwritten @ 9:42 AM
+++ Hope never ends with Death +++
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
23rdMAR10'!
btp!
this post is going to be shitty.
got no mood to do anything this days.
for i dunno wat reason?
going powerhouse tmr!
cnt pang sei johnathan anymore..go there oso have fun!
went carpark wif norman kian chiat adel weijie johnathan..
did de usual stuff there..
why cant i learn faster?
feeling fcuked up whenever others do it well whereas for mi doing like a shit.
seriously..why cant i just learn things faster?
of all things i just cnt find anything tt i learn fast and well.
feeling very complacent at times.
everybody does it well while i just do it like a douche.
even typing out now makes mi feel lazy or whatsoever!
i noe it doesnt make sense from wat i just said..
just felt tt way though.
sometimes complaining stuff out here just makes mi feel even worn out.
i need to make my life better.
cant just go nicotine filling and doing unhealthy stuff anymore.
feelings of being worn out and trashed just have to stop..
abt time!
ja-na!
handwritten @ 8:17 AM
+++ Hope never ends with Death +++
Friday, March 19, 2010
19thMAR10'!
btp!
fml again.
seriously.
i hope galvin wun visit my blog and see this!
even if he did i dun think he would mind though..nothing offensive la!
i did fcuking badly for my 1st year 2nd sem.
which means i retained at a point of going-to-2nd-year-but-still-have-1st-year-module situation.
galvin said he would fail and say he got study abit!
in de end on facebook saw tt he passed everything wif Cs and Ds..which is good!
but seeing him like tt means he really did study and though he expected retaining he didnt.
good for him!
everybody getting good gpas and though some failed they can still summer school.
i cant.
i failed del ael and compro.
galvin and i failed and passed de same things for compro.
even our mini project oso we did together.
but why did he pass and i fail?
is it tt old hag being biase or my fault?
this totally ko my morning.
early morning woke up.
was expecting only to fail del and ael but not compro.
fcuk fcuk fcuk fcuk fcuk fcuk fcuk fcuk!
why is it like this?
i need some wise bastards or bitches advise.
will take this as a lesson learnt though.
seeing almost everybody proceeding wif good results while mi de only one retaining.
without a fixed class wif fixed classmates.
without studying those modules they are going to study.
fcuk la..de more i think de more frustruating!
so i am fcuking going to study and get gpa 4 next sem.
i dun fcuking care how badly i did last sem.
i only care about how to recuperate my lost.
fcuk last sems crap and time wastage!
haha..went for interview wif leon and kr today!
at ubi avenue there vertex tower.
our job will start soon!
pay will be good!
not going to say..private and confidential!
after tt went clementi to arcade..went home after tt!
was about to go hilltop..
den realise nvr take money from mama..
in de end decided to go on monday wif de rest!
hope everything goes smoothly from now..
abt time!
ja-na!
handwritten @ 4:30 AM
+++ Hope never ends with Death +++
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
17thMAR10'!
btp!
just came back from camp!
most of them already noe one another..
so ice breaker dun need play de la!
activity activity..
sun set and did plannings for de coming foc camp activities!
went out wif zhenghou to get things..
nvr sleep for de first nite!
haha..so was quite tiring for de next day activity!
was fun though..played a team building game i nvr they could come up wif!
after tt plan for camp stuff again..
went irc play pool!
relac relac over there and went back loft for a nite rest..
morning came..den they splitted us into pairs!
pairs of gl and gm..
haha..den see how things goes from here la!
having sentosa trip on dunno which day..
hope holiday's pace slower down alot la!
i dun want so fast holiday over la!
haha..after camp over went home and slept..from 3 until 10 la!
den now dunno whether can sleep anot..
i need a way to sleep fast..
dun want lay there for dunno how long den can fall asleep..
abt time!
ja-na!
handwritten @ 8:45 AM
+++ Hope never ends with Death +++
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
11thMAR10'!
btp!
cheebye!
i dun care how this post looks like already.
i think i may suffer from depression if i keep restricting my typing method thing.
cheebye..like fcuking irritated sia!
do guys get mood swing?
i dunno!
fcuk!
this post has and already going to be contaminated wif fcuking alot of vulgarities.
but i dun really fcuking care.
seriously fml.
i really dunno why is all this fcuked up shits going on.
not around mi but wif mi.
sound like de same ah?
fcuk la..same la!
den cheebye..like i got do wrong ah?
cheebye..your father i have to calm down..
its not anyone around mi tts giving mi this trouble!
its just my problem.
dunno la..not explaining much..
can only say tt its not anyone around mi!
do guys suffer from depression at this age?
i dun want la!
please..somebody needs to lead mi to de correct path..
like tt say like very rusty sia!
cheebye..dunno how to rephrase already la!
stress stress stress stress go away!
come again another day..not!
fcuk off!
fcuk de fcuking word stress out of my life!
can some fengshui master or god come down help mi?
den tell mi wat to do and wat not to?
steady la..buddha ala or jesus..
wo yao ni men de bang mang la!
pray to ala is wat ah?
dunno la..no scared no scared!
amithaba and amen can already..
abt time!
ja-na!
handwritten @ 8:28 AM
+++ Hope never ends with Death +++
Sunday, March 07, 2010
7thMAR10'!
btp!
recently happened some toopid things and some new things oso!
haha..toopid things not worth mentioning!
haha..wednesday and yesterday went powerhouse wif abby weijie trance and johnathan!
thought tt wednesday was better..
yesterday la!
de cheebye daiso dun want let us buy lightsticks at de last min..
den dunno wat to do den need to borrow from others..
so lend here and there until all of us only on de podium here and there only..
wednesday was better!
as we drank more and at podium got more space!
haha..some orange mixed wif dunno which alcohol one tequila and two flaming lambo!
like tt den got de mood to go de podium!
haha..de day before powerhouse went to find haoxun and others..
at 175 there awhile den went to play lan and eat at boon lay market!
yongherh used my bicycle and fetched to his house there..
at there rest awhile den went home!
haha..like messy sia!
suddenly here and there..dun read until dulan lei!
my english oso like here and there!
need to post better next time..
abt time!
ja-na!
handwritten @ 1:32 AM
+++ Hope never ends with Death +++
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Boi Nan Sheng
M-18
Westwood Secondary, Ngeeann Poly, dismissed from Ngeeann Poly.
Electronic and Computer Engineering[ECE]
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His family,
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Everything that belongs to him.
Those that are true to me :D
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People who fake themselves infront of me.
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